I am an Antichrist, I am an Anarchist

To be quite honest, I don't really have anything to post about. Not that that'll ever stop me. 

Me and Jonny on the coach to see Blood Brothers a week ago. It was really good!! Jonny is my closest friend and he's like totally cool n shit. I'm wearing my new original 1970s sex pistols military jacket (!!!!) in this pic, with a tiny vintage girl guides patch on the collar. 

This is the back. I'm really fucking excited about this even though I now owe Olivia £10 which I still haven't paid her back for. I got it at the new vintage shop in M'head town centre, which is INCREDIBLE AND CHEAP AND PERFECT and I'm going for a job there when I turn 16 in a month or so.

Another thing!!! I'm planning on writing a zine on being in//surviving abusive relationships. As a survivor myself I've been in a big struggle recently about coping and dealing with stuff, I've had a bout of blaming myself for everything that happened, recently, and I figure making this zine might help me put the whole thing to rest, at least for a little while. 

the age of innocence

At This Time, Esther Cañadas by Ellen Von Unwerth / Vogue Italia September 1997

Don't know the source (message me if you know it^^)

Galaxy Girl

Sex Pistols Jumper - Camden market

Galaxy Leggings - Won in a Raffle at a derby game

Backpack - Don’t remember, Possibly Claire’s but I drew all over it anyway

Portal ring - bought at a derby game

Shoes - Converse

Shirt - Primark

A few of my favourite people.

I'm a silly

Me and Oli.

Last three pics Lozzer's photography on his new film camera he got at the charity shop. Can't wait to stock mine up with film. 

I can make things and I make them beautiful

Went to the fields I used to go to with Red and thought a lot about the people we used to be and the people we are now. Reflected a lot.

'How Do You See the World?'

Trip to the Cemetery.

Post break up comic & pep talk with self. Excuse my poor grammar, I was probably crying at the time.

Princess Bubblegum, Marcy, fionna, random characters including the qt skateboard girl I've taken to drawing so much. 

Doodlezzzzzzz

'Most Nights These Days' drawn two weeks after the breakup.

'I'm your Molly' a product of Say Anything's 'Every Man Has A Molly' and lots of thinking about the person I used to be.

Inspired by Nicole Dollanganger's songs 'Ugly' and 'True Love Café', which were (and still are) very close to my heart.

Baby Feminist. This was from when I was suuuuuper into riot grrrl through 2012.

Same picture drawn from lots of different angles. 

'all i wanna do is watch dumb horror films with you'

So that's pretty much it for this huuuuuuge artwork//journal post. I'm really happy with all the art above and the majority of it was done in the past six weeks, so in the holidays I think I've really worked myself out of the big gross art funk I'd worked myself into, and I'm starting to love the things I make.

For me, It's a really positive thing and part of learning to love myself, which with my body I'm doing a lot better with, but with my art I've never been able to do. 

Despite school, everything's really looking up. 

old outfits that i couldnt be bothered to post because im lazyyyyyyy.

                  

so, this is an outfit I put together for a friend's pool party riiiight at the beginning of summer. Thanks to the water, my red lipstick, earrings, bandanna and hair were out or ruined straight away - but to be honest, it was too fun to care. This was also three days after I got dumped and he was there - I looked t-oooooooo-tally bangin', too.

     

School's started - *sobbing in the corner at the prospect of GCSE's and year 11* - but luckily I only have to wear this hella grossness for another year. My makeup always looks good though. GAME eyebrows. 

I'm SO sad you can't see the detail on my necklace or the rest of this outfit but, for the record it's a cute floaty see - through shirt and wine red jeans - the necklace detail is a teeny weeny dragon wrapped up in wires. (thanks Eliza <3 )

Yes, I'm serious. There are no words or excuses needed. 

Hot greaser boy come to pick you up on his motorbike. Can't wait til my hair's long enough to do the rookie pompadour tutorial and wear this outfit with it. God rockabilly greasers are attractive. 

Me in a cute dress I didnt but but shoulda because in reflection it was £3 and I looked hot and cute and you could see my qt pot belly in it

Aaaaand this is an outfit I wore on one of my last dates to watch zombie movies in, my chemical romance tee and my denim cloud effect skirt. cute cute cute. 

Those Hazy Last Days of Summer

So, these pictures were taken in the park we go to every Wednesday after school. We went on the Sunday in the last weekend before school started, and it was a really fun day.

bringing the PAIIIIN on Dan.

Legs on Gregs radio

We played checkers in the park on a Sunday, and it was really goddamn fun. Me, Dan and Greg won once (with like no help from me lmao) and Jack won once.

MY HAIR LOOKS LIKE A FLUFFY SHEEP I AM SO HAPPY.

Joe (who took the majority of these photos) Me, and Joel. It's super dim here because the day got really cloudy and dark and cold at one point.

I'm upside-down on this huge spinny swing thing in the park.

Loz & Joel

And I'll finish it up with possibly the best photograph of Oli ever taken. 

This was like, second last park of the holidays, and it was really great. Near the end it started getting freeeeezing, which reminded me that - Shit, school starts in three days but luckily AUTUMN comes soon and I'm really excited for that. This park will always be a special place for me because I've spent so much time here over the past three years with these amazing people, and I'll remember every single little heart-to-heart and whiny angst filled cry I've ever had here - as well as every 'private conversation', and little in-jokes and laughs I'm lucky to have shared with such rad friends.

Most photos taken by Joseph :3